Now u said u are working and u don't like people to disturb u?

How about your partner is dying just besides you while u are working and u just fucking leave her die because u are freaking upset she's disturbing ur work with her plead of life????

How about ur child is begging u to bring him to clinic because he's having high fever and about to collapse in anytime but u just let him die because are freaking upset he's disturbing ur work???

u can go to hell die with ur work and boss!!!!!!

The Office

It’s funny when people say something else, and do or mean the other way around. Here in my so-called “2nd crib” everybody seems to pretend they know everything (when they are actually just a piece of rotten meat).

They complaint about others – whether they are doing the “right” job or not, whose ideas are better than the rest, who did the most of work, who are not doing least of work, and even the way somebody’s dresses up has become a world issue…bla..bla…bla…bla…

If you ask me how I survive this “gloomy weather” everyday, I honestly don’t know! I, myself, am surprised on my magical ability to ignore the toxics and keep myself reserve towards what people call “the office politics”. Jinx!

Tell you the truth, I’m getting tired and frustrated towards these people and their attitudes. I couldn’t seem to blend well ( I mean more on their habitual actions) and tangled between the real me and the “other” me – yup, I have to create an alter-ego which I still fail to give a proper name due to my ridiculously crazy life recently.

Sometimes I doubt these people truly deserve to be here. or shall I say it's ME who don't deserve to be here? Hurrmmmm….

Tell me what went wrong....

I feel like a total helpless loser recently. I keep making mistakes and people keep pointing out my weaknesses. I feel like I have no quality and have lost a lot of momentum. It makes me feel I am dependent to others to keep telling me what should I do to make things right. Everything that I try to improve seems wrong.

No matter how hard I tried to get things fixed it's still broken. I thought I have tried my best but my best is not good enough to others.

Why it is so hard to get things right? Why everything does not lead me anywhere? Am I that stupid? Am I so reckless? Am I always careless? Am I so low in quality?

Where goes my strength? Where goes my confident? Where goes my previously smart self? Where goes all the witty-ness?
Can somebody tell me at least that I have tried my best and that I have more potential to go far?

Can they tell me at least that I have put my effort and they appreciate it but I just need to brush up more?

Sometimes, how I just wish I could curl up and get myself lost in my own “under –the-bed-world” over and over again….