I feel like a total helpless loser recently. I keep making mistakes and people keep pointing out my weaknesses. I feel like I have no quality and have lost a lot of momentum. It makes me feel I am dependent to others to keep telling me what should I do to make things right. Everything that I try to improve seems wrong.
No matter how hard I tried to get things fixed it's still broken. I thought I have tried my best but my best is not good enough to others.
Why it is so hard to get things right? Why everything does not lead me anywhere? Am I that stupid? Am I so reckless? Am I always careless? Am I so low in quality?
Where goes my strength? Where goes my confident? Where goes my previously smart self? Where goes all the witty-ness?
Can somebody tell me at least that I have tried my best and that I have more potential to go far?
Can they tell me at least that I have put my effort and they appreciate it but I just need to brush up more?
Sometimes, how I just wish I could curl up and get myself lost in my own “under –the-bed-world” over and over again….
